My Healthy Relationship

You're going to love what I did with that title .. I just know it. I'm sure you guessed it I am NOT in a relationship.. ha ha jokes on you if you thought I was.. but I am in a predicament with my health. My whole life as long as I could remember I have had an extremely abusive relationship with food. We hit each other.. metaphorically speaking.. I have always used food as a coping mechanism, an exterior block, a wall, a security blanket.. and in return food has very warmly welcomed me in, kept me warm, and has given me lots and lots of fat. YAAAAAAY... that's a fair trade right?? WRONG! I have never found a way to correctly have a relationship with food.. because that is what it is.. everyone has a relationship with it, you may not be thinking about it but its true. You have to consciously choose 'am I going to eat lucky charms for breakfast or am I going to eat the bran?" lucky charms says " come here baby, I am happy and lucky and I even come with a pretty little leprechaun on me" and most of the time I would be like " leprechaun??!! HECK YES!" and would never even listen to what the bran had to offer.. healthy heart, a great start to the day, healthy weight. And you know something as simple as eating healthy and being healthy can completely change your life. If I had eaten healthy my whole life I can guarantee that I would not look the way I look today.. and who's to say that I wouldn't be a completely different person if I looked different. Would I act different? Would I think different? Would I be different? Would I have different friends? I think the answer to all of those questions is .. yes. I would be different. NOW NOW listen to me. I wouldn't change who I am for the WORLD. I love my friends, and my life, the way I think, the way I act.. sometimes.. BUT I also believe the lifestyle that I live is hindering me in progressing. THEREFORE ( big fancy word means big fancy transition) I am trying to change my life. I can't honestly tell you a time in my life when I haven't been dieting. I was dieting  in elementary school and that is so sad. I should have been running around playing with my friends but instead I was caught up in my emotional relationship with food. But I am drawing the line no more missing out because of the way my relationship has been, I am no longer going to have an abusive relationship but rather a healthy relationship with food. I am trying to choose the foods that benefit ME rather than my tongue. I am trying to choose foods that will help me in the long run rather than seasonal satisfaction, and I am trying to change my lifestyle so that I can be healthy, be given more opportunities, and can feel good about myself. I will be updating you on this journey and I know already this is NOT going to be easy, but I am not letting myself quit this time. This is the end of the line.